I want to fall peacefully
Like the beautiful leaves in autumn
Gracefully touching the land that we call home
I want to feel the breeze
Trickling around my body
As I walk with the gorgeous sunrise in the morning.
It’s amazing what nature does to you really
As the sun gives you warmth and happiness
Whenever you’re in a good mood
But also, it can be comforting at times
Being moody and in need of releasing your emotions
As the rain is there to help cover up the sounds of your tears crashing to the ground.
Sometimes I wonder, is the weather trying to comfort me?
Because if it is, it has seen the best and worst of me
I’m embarrassed that it has the knowledge in knowing that I’m in need of
As i scream to the ones next to me and don’t hear a thing
Sometimes, I just want to fall
And in hopes there will be someone there to catch me.
I want to dance like the leaves
Swaying back and forth to the rhythm of the wind
As it’s carrying their steps, one by one
I want to feel the joy that the leaves are feeling
Knowing they are going to be together
And land onto the surface which they’d call home.
I wanted laughter and joy in my life
But why don’t I feel that way?
I can’t breathe
Did someone lower the oxygen level?
Because I can’t think straight.
All I ever wanted was support
All I ever wanted was for someone to say that it’s going to be fine
But it’s not going to be fine
Sometimes, I just want to give up
And lay while I let the whole world flash right before my eyes.